IT'S 4.47 AM AGAIN.12.sep.25 (n.d.)
Dear Diary,
Yes, you guessed it! It's 4.47a.m. again because I went down this whole rabbit hole of, ok so it started like this; I saw this profile on spacehey (whitenoiz25), and it was from this blog that had something to do with the majority of spacehey users slowly becoming minors, particularly younger ones (12-14), and this person was agreeing with the post, and I thought their profile looked cool so I was like "ok! let's see if THIS person is an adult" and when i clicked to view their profile, it said...
This user has blocked you from viewing their profile.
?! That was honestly new for me 🤣 and so I viewed their profile through another acc, honestly I'm just confused on why they blocked me?? Cuz I'm a minor?? Where did they even FIND my profile like it's literally so obscure?? Anyway, this person is 20+ and I realised how adults usually have very vague profiles and suddenly I remembered that time I added a kinnies list to my profile and I was like "I WAS right. this IS oversharing and unsafe and unwise." so then I went on this spree to create a private neocities so I can store my spacehey stuff, just stuff abt me in general so I can delete those from my actual profile. But then I got obsessed with coding this digital diary specifically and to base it off of doqmeat's website, that I just, cannot sleep?
The sad part is I'm literally procrastinating on coding WITH coding cuz I had music on, I was ready to dive back in VSCode and finish up the display_board() function that I was assigned but nooo the task was too foreign to my brain that it decided to keep avoiding it. I'm in bed with my laptop as I speak UGH I need to finish it up by 2p.m. later! And also I have therapy at 4p.m. again later today. Part of me is so sick of it? And because I was "assigned" to write down my "philosophy" (I still have no doubt that my therapist is absolutely underestimating the possible length/depth of it...), I still don't know if I should show it to him. I mean, I did write it down last Saturday because it was stuck on my mind, but I keep having thoughts of "what if this is all just melodrama?"
Anyway, I'm really feeling the sleep start to kick in now...plus afraid that my mom is gonna randomly wake up and barge in and be like, "you're still awake?!" I'll probably work on the display_board() function soon, and polish up the create_board() function...Honestly, for loops in python still freaking scare me because literally what even are they?! But I found a definition for them that kind of helped me today:
For loops are loops that iterate over anything iterable (duh!), for a fixed number of times.
Hmm but actually I kinda wanna go over Chapter 6 of CS first... (the one on automation, ai, robotics MY FAV) I'll end this entry here for today :) Tiredness kicking in, like I said... Goodnight! ♡ (or good morning actually...)